Frustration due to frustration
Do you ever feel frustrated? I know I do, pretty much daily in fact.
I was working yesterday, a long day of lots of problematic customers....so that made me frustrated. I have been dissatisfied with my work for several months, so it is not really difficult to frustrate me. I was thinking about this yesterday. I think at the root of it all I am frustrated because of my frustration. It isn't that the job is difficult...I get a call, pick up food, take said food to the customer and move on. Not exactly rocket science! I have always had an extremely high work ethic, doing the best that I can in every situation, even when I am not satisfied in my work. A couple of the sermons that I have been listening to over the past couple of days have talked about being the best cupbearer you can be. You may be 1000 miles away from your God given passions like Nehemiah, but being the best cupbearer in the mean time is what God is calling you to at the present. I find myself struggling with this....I have a lot of different God given passions, not a single one of them is delivering food. (on a side note, I have scaled back my work so that I can focus on school and my book selling, so that is a blessing!) I try to find good in every day, most of it ends up being that I can pay my bills and use the finances that I get to further the Kingdom...so it is tough to find fulfillment in just making money.
Not really anything crazy, just what's on my heart at the moment. I know that all of this will produce something beyond my wildest dreams....so I frustratedly wait!
I also want to say that the difference between being frustrated and discontented is important. While I cannot say that I, like Paul, have found the secret to being contented in any and every situation, I think that I am content in most every situation....just striving to do better, get better, learn more, live more. I have learned the secret to being content in most every situation, just not the secret of not being frustrated in any and every situation.
I was working yesterday, a long day of lots of problematic customers....so that made me frustrated. I have been dissatisfied with my work for several months, so it is not really difficult to frustrate me. I was thinking about this yesterday. I think at the root of it all I am frustrated because of my frustration. It isn't that the job is difficult...I get a call, pick up food, take said food to the customer and move on. Not exactly rocket science! I have always had an extremely high work ethic, doing the best that I can in every situation, even when I am not satisfied in my work. A couple of the sermons that I have been listening to over the past couple of days have talked about being the best cupbearer you can be. You may be 1000 miles away from your God given passions like Nehemiah, but being the best cupbearer in the mean time is what God is calling you to at the present. I find myself struggling with this....I have a lot of different God given passions, not a single one of them is delivering food. (on a side note, I have scaled back my work so that I can focus on school and my book selling, so that is a blessing!) I try to find good in every day, most of it ends up being that I can pay my bills and use the finances that I get to further the Kingdom...so it is tough to find fulfillment in just making money.
Not really anything crazy, just what's on my heart at the moment. I know that all of this will produce something beyond my wildest dreams....so I frustratedly wait!
I also want to say that the difference between being frustrated and discontented is important. While I cannot say that I, like Paul, have found the secret to being contented in any and every situation, I think that I am content in most every situation....just striving to do better, get better, learn more, live more. I have learned the secret to being content in most every situation, just not the secret of not being frustrated in any and every situation.
